Monday, January 18, 2016

52 Week Blogger Challenge {Week 3: Strengths & Weaknesses}

WEEK THREE: Strengths & Weaknesses

This post was a little difficult for me to right because a lot of my strengths and weaknesses stem from the passing of my mom in April of 2014 but a lot of them also come from my friends and family. A few months after my mom passed away, I posted a Selfie Sunday:Strength, similar to this post.

When my mom passed away I found this new me that was strong and felt I was going to be OK. One of my strengths of who I am is the strength I had to put my grief on hold for my sister. I put my emotions in the back of my head and was there for my sister...she needed me more than I needed to be alone. I thank my mom for the strength because up until her last breath she was fighting the entire time. My sister is my best friend and although I was grieving the same loss seeing her cry and her life thrown upside down in a matter of a week was heart breaking and I knew I needed to comfort her in every way I possibly could.

The passing of my mom also opened my eyes to some of my weaknesses. There were and are still times that I don't talk about my mom. I rarely talk about my mom and I think that is why I write about her here, it is easier for me to get the words out by typing than actually saying them. When she first passed away my best friends mom gave me a journal to write to my mom in. I was writing in it almost every day and then I just stopped. I am not sure why I stopped but I don't think I have written in it in months, but I also saw myself talking to my husband a little more about her rather than just keeping it bottled up. Now, I am still not where I want to be with being able to talk about her freely and not get upset, but it is part of my grief and one of these days I hope to make this weakness of not being able to fully express my feelings about her death into a strength of being able to fully express my feelings and feeling comfortable about it. It may never, I don't know I have never lost anyone this close to me.

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Jennifer Dodrill said...

I'm sorry for your loss. Even after a year and a half I imagine it's still pretty raw. Thank you for honestly sharing how you are and how you feel. It helps so many people

Cassie Owoc said...

So sorry for your loss - I recently lost my Grandpa, but I can only imagine what losing a parent feels like.
On a positive note, I love this challenge!! Great writing prompts!

T Austin said...

I'm so sorry about your loss. I can't imagine how difficult that must have been for you. I"m glad you have found strength to write our your feelings here.

Being Leanna said...

I think being able to write about your mom after her passing shows a lot of strength. I can't imagine how you feel and can't offer any words of comfort but as a person who heals through writing I think you're off to a good start. Maybe picking up that journal again will allow you to start talking about your mom more often.

All The Things I Do said...

I think you are so strong to have handled the loss of your mom. I'm sure she is really proud. I love the idea of the challenge. I think some of the best blogs let you get to know the person behind the blog. Can't wait t read more.

Sarah Ricker: Sarah Emily Blogs said...

I am so sorry for your loss girl but, I think that you have handled it so well. You are a very strong lady!

Oh Chel said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. It takes a lot out of a person when they lose their parent... I'm sure that she is going to be real proud of who you are becoming and what great things you've still yet to do.

I really like that journal idea. To talk to your mom. It's a sweet little thing that you can share with her even if she isn't physically here anymore.

Be well.