WEEK THREE: Strengths & Weaknesses
This post was a little difficult for me to right because a lot of my strengths and weaknesses stem from the passing of my mom in April of 2014 but a lot of them also come from my friends and family. A few months after my mom passed away, I posted a Selfie Sunday:Strength, similar to this post.
When my mom passed away I found this new me that was strong and felt I was going to be OK. One of my strengths of who I am is the strength I had to put my grief on hold for my sister. I put my emotions in the back of my head and was there for my sister...she needed me more than I needed to be alone. I thank my mom for the strength because up until her last breath she was fighting the entire time. My sister is my best friend and although I was grieving the same loss seeing her cry and her life thrown upside down in a matter of a week was heart breaking and I knew I needed to comfort her in every way I possibly could.
The passing of my mom also opened my eyes to some of my weaknesses. There were and are still times that I don't talk about my mom. I rarely talk about my mom and I think that is why I write about her here, it is easier for me to get the words out by typing than actually saying them. When she first passed away my best friends mom gave me a journal to write to my mom in. I was writing in it almost every day and then I just stopped. I am not sure why I stopped but I don't think I have written in it in months, but I also saw myself talking to my husband a little more about her rather than just keeping it bottled up. Now, I am still not where I want to be with being able to talk about her freely and not get upset, but it is part of my grief and one of these days I hope to make this weakness of not being able to fully express my feelings about her death into a strength of being able to fully express my feelings and feeling comfortable about it. It may never, I don't know I have never lost anyone this close to me.
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